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I had another attack of the dreadful kidney stones. This will be 2 in 6 months. So in order to avoid this ordeal again I am on a water only forever drinking diet. Never again will a soda touch these lips, plus the doctor said that if I change my eating habits it would help ward them off, so I’m doing it on the real! That’s a kind of pain I don’t ever wanna deal with again…..ever!

So I’ve decided to try out being a vegetarian.

We shall see…

Ok back to square numero uno. The weight has come back. I’m too scared to weigh myself offically, but I’m 110 % sure I’ve gained like all of it back{maybe more eek!}  Ya know I re-read my earlier blogs and just felt kinda sad. Where did that determined Katie go? Apparently she went to McDonald’s and got the whole left side of the menu…then super sized it!!!! I think I got lost in myself. I got promoted to the pharmacy at work and got back together with the ex-fiance {which is a very different relationship then I thought I would be getting myself into….} My life changed quite a lot in the matter of a month. I guess it was easier to just eat what I wanted than to always count calories and watch what I ate. I mean come on I was eating out left and right with him. Most of my time is spent in the pharamcy and then the rest is spent with Lee.  Excuses Excuses. I got lots of them. I make one after the other, trying to valiadate myself, then when I think about it too much I say “Tomorrow is a new day and things will be different.” Blah Blah Blah….So I’m not gonna say that anymore. I’m in a place in my life where everything if falling into place, professionally and personally, why not add physically. So I’m not trying to make a New Year’s resolution or anything, cause it’s always to loose weight and it never works out, but I do believe ‘09 is the year of Katie. So, the goal is to be a happy, independent Katie. :) :) So you better watch out cause it’s gonna be interesting!

So I reverted back a little…well a lot. I lost 13 pounds and apparently thought I looked like a freakin’ super model. This ALWAYS happens. I can’t let it get me down though. I’ve got to stick to it this time. Tomorrow I am back on 110%. *I would say I would start today, but it’s 10:30 p.m and I already ate fried chicken and mashed potatos….EEK!*

I once heard that ” Thin feels better than any food could taste”. It better feel damn good cause that chicken was delicious! LOL

SFL

It seems like you have to hit rock bottom to really see yourself for what you are. Hello rock bottom, my name is Katie. I hope to never see you again.

I’m so ready for a change; in ALL aspects of my life. Loosing weight is one of the many things in my life that I need to change. I need an overhaul life style change! I just feel like I’m stuck. I started thinking last night about my life up to now. It made me a bit sad honestly. Recently I’ve had a couple not so great things happen to me. The first being my fiance breaking up with my. I thought I had my life all planned out, but apparently not so much. The second is that I couldn’t afford to go back to school. I’m a senior in college and it’s SO frustrating to not to be able to finish up. Grrr. So I had a small pity party. It was depressing. After all the “why’s” and “how’s” I realized that I could dwell on it or move past it and try to make something better for myself. So I made some goals, and here they are:

1 . Loose 110 pounds and keep it off by not only changing my eating habits, but a lifestyle change.

2. Get a “grown up job” :). I feel like I am better than being a beauty adviser at Walgreens and I want to go to work and feel fulfilled. I don’t want to dread going.

3. SAVE SAVE SAVE money so I am able to move out of my parents house and start my life.

4. Get a hobby. I’ve always wanted to learn pottery and sign language. Plus, it’ll get me out so I’m able to meet new people and make new friends!

So those are my goals for now. I’m sure as my journey countinues there will be changes or modifications. I am so serious about this. I’m so determined to make a difference in my life. I hope this site will help me through the tough times where I want to binge or give up. This is the beginning of a new start! I can’t wait!!!!!!!!!!!